Filed under: Events, music, My Day | Tags: 2009, august, change, crying, days, december, december 2009, enjoying, flying, get back, headache, heart, january, july, june, late, listen, miss, my heart, never, now, shouldn't i?, sore, stress, summer, tense, the avett brothers, time, winter, work
Brendan got me the Avett Brothers’ CD for Christmas. The one I’ve been longing for since it came out on September 29th.
I’m listening to it now in Mrs. Propp’s room, and I probably won’t stop listening to it until I know every beat, word, and tune to every song. This is my December and January music. A little melancholy and a little rockin’, a little vivid and a little sad. These boys really know how to sing to my heart, even if they don’t know me.
I know I’ve been really stressed and working (all the time) as of late. I remember when a melodic line of Avett would send that stress flying back where it came from.
I’m sitting here tense and headachy and sore and listening to the Avett Brothers. My heart’s still crying because I miss summer (still), but I understand now that it’s gone. And it will be back soon enough, and bring a new fresh vital wave of change. I should be enjoying the time here, the time now. Shouldn’t I?
I hope the Avetts will help me change. Help me to accept that it’s never going to be June, July, August 2009, ever again. Those are days I can’t get back, and I don’t want these to be bland and fraught with sadness: I can’t get back this December, either.
It’s so hard to live.
Kick Drum Heart 