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Loading spread…

“Loading spread” is what the yearbook site is telling me. Well hurry it up already, I only have fifteen minutes left before the four other girls and Mrs. Propp get here (to the school). Maybe even less than that. I’m finally supposed to be on a high-high-speed computer and it’s wasting my time loading?

Uhg, and I’m wasting time playing with wordpress. But honestly, I’m not going to wait around for the piece of shit to load. It needs to work, and work now. I’m a schedule, dammit. And my grandma’s computer is reasonably decent– I mean, it loads the site, which is more than I can say for my old school dial-up at home– but it’s no comparison to lightning-fast load time.

So I’m wondering where the hell my lightning loading is now. Piece of shit, piece of shit. I’m going to have to steadily fiddle with layouts all day today. It’s not the creating of them that is the tough part, it’s aligning everything and perfecting minute details that to the untrained eye might look normal. But to me, to anyone who knows the program, if it’s not right, it sucks. And I can’t handle that, not today. I have an agenda. I’m busy again.

As excited about that as I am, I want technology to cooperate.



Yea, tho’ I walk through the hallway of the crapload of Regents

1/27/09     7:10 AM    The Car

I am not feeling too hot right now. My stomach is still unsettled (although not NEARLY to the extent it was yesterday). I’m on my way to take the Math B Regents for the fourth time. I have never failed it– I just have yet to get the score I want on it, and it’s the one exam I don’t mind taking again.

I had a Kashi granola bar and a cup of coffee for breakfast. And now I really don’t feel so great. Oh, uhg. I thought it was better than eating nothing! which is what I wanted to do.

I just want to go home and head back to bed. I never don’t usually want this… but today it sounds perfect. Heavenly, in fact.

Alright, time to go. Here’s the school.

Oh; but my mom and sister are talking about the dentist, which reminds me– I had a dream last night that I was at school and there was a smiley poster for free dental care for one day only– the “Day of Smiles.” Strange!